"Yes, He is good. He is good even when He calls you and me to places that are dirty and disease ridden. He is good even when we end up possibly sharing in the diseases of the people we go to serve. He is good because He has met us at our deepest need and now uses us to show His glory and to advance His gospel among the places of greatest need in the world."
I read that and started weeping. I cannot explain why. Maybe because I felt compassion. Or maybe because I can feel Him drawing my heart to the dark and dangerous, and my humanness does not want to comply. That means suffering, possible sickness, going without. That means missing friends and family and everything my life has been filled with so far. That means so much. And it broke me. Because what is that compared to Jesus? What is that compared with the fact that people around the world are dying for Him when I struggle with giving 10% of my income and paying attention to the needs of those around me? What is that?!
I've been created for so much more. And it's time to stop wasting time on me.
"But then I realize there is never going to come a day when I stand before God and He looks at me and says, 'I wish you would have kept more for yourself.'"
"Surely those who know the great passionate heart of Jehovah must deny their own loves to share in the expression of His."
